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Bookkeeper
03:41
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In this house
I have no face
I have no respect
I have no place.
Blinded by your pride & insecurities
You can't see the walls that you've built all around me.
This house is not a home
This house is not a home.
Forever been lost & now I'm all alone.
The only one I've ever loved is gone, please just bring her back and we can right the wrongs.
My whole life has been spent pleasing you.
Can't you see all of the shit you've put me through?
It was never enough, never enough for you.
I gave it my all, gave it my all, and all you did was put me down.
No matter my efforts, you'll make sure I fall holding your feelings, standing tall.
Let's turn the page on everything that doesn't matter, it doesn't matter.
And after all
We hope to find
Hope & faith.
Love & grace.
My first mistake was ever trusting you.
I let you in and all you did was put me down.
I won't let you be the one who holds me down.
You'll never taste that sweet victory.
I won't let you be the one who holds me down.
I finally love and accept myself I did it on my own.
I only move forward from here on out.
There's no looking back and there is definitely no regret.
Because what you put me through has made me what I am today.
Now I'll just say thank you and walk away.
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2. |
Shut You Out
02:27
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There's not much more that I can do
But hate myself when I think of you.
You are the reason i sleep by the door
And count the cracks on the wooden floor.
Can I keep living in the future, when you keep living in the past?
At times Its best to just let it die.
Should I keep you in or should I shut you out.
Cause I've been caving in.
And I can't figure out
If this is even me
Or what you want me to be
Am I what you wanted me to be?
Am I what you wanted me to be?
I've been here bed ridden with nothing but blank books to relate to. Topics of my younger thoughts.
Contemplating "Was i right or wrong?"
Since you've been gone I've grown so much.
Do you even recognize me anymore?
I've grown a lot since I was four, right?
Cause I've been caving in.
And I can't figure out.
If this is even me
Or what you want me to be
Am I what you wanted me to be?
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3. |
Interlude
01:12
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I lay and wonder if I left tonight
Would you notice I'm gone
I saw your chest release a breath of sigh.
Cause I've been holding on for dear life.
It's your ignorance.
It's my deliverance.
You're not innocent you know just what you did.
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4. |
Winter Solstice
04:20
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Father
Oh Father
You've got to let this go
The life you lead is hard, I know.
But the drugs have made you numb;
When you look back to what you've done you'll realize that there's more to living than the feelings you disguise.
In the end i'm still your son
And your mistakes
Have made me strong
I've learned to trust no soul
To let love bleed
Then let it go
I'm still your son.
I'm still your son.
There's not a feeling in this world I'd rather feel
Than your embrace
I know I told myself I hate you but I've got to understand
And now I think I understand
The reason I resent you is
Cause you're absent without leave
There was no closure
And now it's over.
I speak of times we never spent
And forget the memories we had.
You've got to let this go
The life you lead is hard, I know.
But the drugs have made you numb;
When you look back to what you've done you'll realize there's more to living
Than the feelings you disguise.
In the end i'm still your son
And your mistakes
Have made me strong
I've learned to trust no soul
To let love bleed
Then let it go
I'm still your son.
I'm still your son.
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surmount Mc Allen, Texas
We are Surmount, a five piece band from the south making music that speaks to us. We hope it speaks to you.
sur·mount (verb)
to overcome (a difficulty or obstacle).
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